She married and has two beautiful baby girls. Arianna and Jessina.
In July 1993 I had a child that no one else wanted but me. I admit to planning and scheming in having her. Her father was not fond of having anymore children, being he already had six. I was young and was ready for another. She grew up fast before my eyes. Worked hard at being the good girl, honor roll student, over achiever, and a girl after her fathers own heart. She has been a joy and I regret nothing, but the way I went into having her. All fault lays here, not with her or her father. The love I have for her has been my focus not the guilt. She is now in college, graduated with her associates and now aiming for her masters. She has grown up to be a strong, beautiful woman, whom I am proud to say is my daughter. I can count on her to be there for me. She has that motherly love and passion about her and one day she will make a GREAT MOM! I love her to infinity and back. Nothing will ever change that. No distance or differences can or will change the love I have for my baby girl Equilla.
In February 1999 I had a surprise and a half. I was on Nero plants and was not supposed to have them removed for at least a year and half later. I and another lady in Arizona were the first two to have gotten pregnant with the implants. The doctors were surprised and kept a close eye on me. I was considered high risk pregnancy due to the premature birth I had with Charlie. I was with Equilla too but was never told that. I carried this baby working on concrete floors and carrying things I had no business in carrying. I said yes to this life when her father said no. I said yes to the plan God has for her. She is my little Law and Order girl whom I love and adore. I named her Selena.
April 16, 2002 I miscarried a life that my then husband and I both agreed into having. I will never forget and I anxiously await our uniting in heaven.
March 2003 I gave birth to last and final baby. I wanted a child still and was ready to try as soon as I was able to after having my miscarriage. I wanted one last chance in hope of having my boy, that I thought for sure I would have had with each pregnancy. I am glad God gave me what He know I was able to handle. I thank God for all girls. This little one kind of stands alone. She is born much later after her sisters. So when she was wanting to play Barbies they were coming out of it. So she pretty much had to keep herself company and with her personality its not easy. She likes to be in groups and likes to have someone her age to play with. Thank God for our church and the friends she has there. My older girls are growing up and discovering themselves while she is testing her limits. She is a definite fire cracker. I named her Macayla.
Well those are my kids and I love them more than I thought I ever could. I may go through heartache and disappointments with them. Yet I still have the joy, happiness, laughter, and love that can never be taken away for them. They have saved me when I at times thought they were killing me (figure of speech). I love them unconditionally.
I will periodically up date things about them and share some of their lives. If you have questions feel free to ask. I will try to answer them to the best of my ability.
Thanks for your support,
Rhonda A.K.A Spanky Cola
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