Today we have...

Hello everyone!
Well I hope everyone had a safe and wonderful weekend. We are already in the middle of the week and I hope you guys are having a great week. I have been working on a challenge that I will be doing a video on this week. So be watching for it at the end of the week.
I had such a discouraging beginning of my week. My husband I have been working on that hutch. Well sad thing is it has been too hot to clear it and every time we clear it, it runs or has a lot of brush strokes. I was hoping to have it done before Friday but it does not look like I will get that. As of right now I to come up with other ways to store my candles and what I am going to put in place for where the hutch was going to go.

So has anyone seen the Tribute Series videos I have been doing? I have done 4 so far. My last one was of the family in Israel. Their channel is called Foolyliving. Here is the video if you would like to watch it. I do these videos to encourage Youtubers. A lot of them seem to be dealing with some sort of negativity and I want them to know that what they have done has inspired me and encouraged me to be better or do better for my family and I. Whether it be organizing, foods to eat, shopping, or what have you. I am thankful for all of them. I will continue to do tribute videos for as long as I am inspired and touched.
Well I got a lot to do today to get ready for my challenge. Hope you have a great rest of the day or week. Thanks for stopping in.

I am sorry

Hello everyone! I am sitting here trying to find the right words to express how I never meant to hurt someone. It is amazing how you can change about something but at the end of the day, the decision on how you handled the situation can come out and bite you.
The things you set out there in the atmosphere is there forever. It can be forgiven and can be erased, ripped, burned and or torn but the memory is engraved in the mind and soul.
I pray that the person I hurt knows I love them and never meant for it to come out the way it was perceived.
So in my pain there is growth. I pray for God to recognize my sincerity and relays the message on what I truly mean.
This is a late post but I have been a busy turd today.
1. Phone calls to dentists and doctors
2. Ivan a hair cut
3. Answering comments on my latest videos
4. Calling clubs for the band I manage
5. Wash truck
6. Laundry
7. Blog
8. Dishes and clean kitchen
9. First thing I done was read my word and spent time with God
10. Meeting with my Pastor
11. Talk to my girls
12. Relax with a glass of wine

Right now I am blogging with my wine....lol.
I got all this done and I forgot to mention I helped my husband with changing the back brakes and getting ready to help with the hutch.
After all this is said and done I still feel like I did not do enough. It does look fulfilling when I see it all written out. That's why I keep my planner so detailed. I like the feeling of accomplishment.
I pray everyone has a safe weekend and that everyone thinks responsibly. My heart goes out to all the families that have to face this weekend without their loved ones that was just lost in the movie theater last night (I believe).
Please keep God your main focus and everything else will come into play. Blessings

On a roll

Hello everyone!

I am on a roll ya'll!!!! I have been doing scheduled videos on time and doing this blog everyday. Habits are easy to create but hard to break when you get started. I am writing this after a rushing day yesterday and today does not look much better. I went to get my hair cut yesterday and I was not sure there was much of a difference but there is a subtle difference.

My husband was not going to have me cut too much of my hair but they did cut off an inch and gave me some layers. I know it caused my hair to spring up and be curly.

Anyway, today I am heading out to take my youngest daughter shopping and to see my second oldest daughter Equilla for her birthday. She had a rough day yesterday and I want to go and encourage her. Plus take her a birthday present.

I do plan to give Ivan a hair cut when I get home. Yeah that should be fun....NOT! I hate the feeling of dog hair all over me. So yeah... time to get it done regardless.

I did a You tube tribute video today for someone that has inspired me, even if it was just recent. I do what I have to do because God laid her on my heart and that is Andrea from Foolyliving. She let me know that she has watched it. I just hope it encouraged her, she is a beautiful person.

I also just recently subscribed to her...again. Yes again. I was subscribed to her before in the past and unsubscribed. The I wanted to watch her videos again so I went back. I had this urge to watch her again. I hope when I said that it did not hurt her feelings. I just wanted to be honest. I had no reason for unsubing but I was overwhelmed with so many videos and it was not necessarily from her. I unsubbed a lot of people but for some reason I had to come back to her. She has this glow about her and I just think she is a beautiful person. So if you have never seen her videos or know who I am referring to please go check her out.

Well I better go and get some of my stuff done today. YAH!!!! Ugh....

 

 

It is your day

Hello everyone! I am starting my day on a some what good note. Last night my feelings got hurt by the words of someone I trust and love deeply. Although, that person says they were joking and I should take it seriously, it hurts. You feel that you know that person and trust them to never hurt you... they do. I figure now it is time to just have tougher skin even with those I trust. I have had to ask myself have I always been the best to them and treated them fairly. No I can not say that I have. Have I maybe have hurt their feelings sometimes in the past? Yeah most likely. So it is time to put my big girl panties on and let them know I still love them and even apologize. God has really been on about apologizing to people even if I feel it is their fault for everything. Because they have feelings too and I need to acknowledge my wrong doing as well and not just my feelings that have been hurt.
Anyway, today is a day of celebrating! My second oldest daughter Equilla is celebrating her birthday!

 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!!!!

I am so proud of you and the way you are going after your dreams. Although, you have distanced yourself from me and your family I respect your privacy, regardless of whether I like your decisions or not. I miss you and wish I could take you back to when you were a baby and redo everything with you. I did the best I know how to do at the time, but knowing what I know now I would have done things differently. Not with just you but all of your sisters. You would never have been exposed to rejection, hate, hurt, cruelty, emotional abuse, and the lack of anything that you were in need of. Regardless of the strength it has given you today. I would have held on a little tighter, a little longer and exposed you to the things that only God has for you.

I love you to infinity and back. Be the woman God has called you to be and not what the world wants you to be. You are beautiful!

Happy Birthday!

(No Equilla did not hurt my feelings. It was someone else.) ;)

 

Be for real

Hello everyone! I am having a very productive day! I am enjoying this time with the girls and doing some cleaning. Although, one child is being unsocial and pain in my butt, I am still moving on and praying for peace. I took pictures of what my house looked like before I made the bed, did two loads of dishes, swept, dusted and picked up. My house is not always at its best and I do have my off days. I try to keep up with high demands of being a wife, mother, dog mommy, and grandmother. (That does not include homeschooling year round.) I want to keep it real with you guys that my house is less than perfect and I do not always keep it neat and tidy....Oh I desire for that, do not get me wrong, but when you have kids at home all day long and a husband that works weird hours, it is a challenge. Here is my bedroom before:

Yeah, pretty disgusting.

Here is the after: (oh I want to rearrange and change a few things but I am limited space)

Now that curtain was straightened out but you see that fury thing in the corner. Yeah Garson...He got in the window after I fixed it.

Here is the living room.

 

My granddaughters helping in the living room. They are such good helpers. Now that brown wall I am planning to paint and change that painting. I am not a fan of it anymore. Time for a change, right?

 

 

My dining room is another room in my home that is still in the middle of being transformed. there is another glimpse of the table my husband and I done.

 

 

 

Oh boy Kitchen and backroom have still some fixing up to do but one thing at a time. The one thing that I am going through as far as a training goes is NOT feeling it has to be completed right now. It is a process and I am still working on it. If you remember the kitchen and backroom use to be a reddish color and the backroom was my exercise room now its a family room and a greenish grey color. Things are changing. I bought a few things to hang on the wall, just trying to decide where to hang them. I may wait until I get the brown wall painted. Here is some of things I plan to hang.

So I hope I didn't bombard you with pictures. I just wanted you to get a view of my daily life. I do not always have it all together and there are days I just let it go. Not that my house is always messy cause it is not. I can only deal with it for a minute then I have to get my bum in gear and get things together. So I hope this encourages you to get in gear and not to feel so overwhelmed. It is one thing at a time. Blessings!

 

New Chapter....same book

Hello everyone! I pray this finds you all blessed and highly favored. It has been a pretty productive day today. I got up this morning and read the Bible and thought about my day, as well as week.

A look into one planner

into another....

I am looking into all the things I need to get done this week. My husband and I are working on my hutch and I will be doing a video on my latest projects either this week or next. Here is a peek at the hutch

I will have a video on the before and after. I hope you stay tuned to see the whole thing. It will be awesome!

I have the pleasure of spending time with my two granddaughters before the go back to school.

I can not get anything done either with these fury friends

No matter where I go they are up under foot. I love them but goodness give me walk space. LOL

So today I am in a pretty good place spiritually and mentally. I have did a lot of thinking about my situation and where I am and doing. Am I proud of the sin? No. Am I desiring the change? Yes. I stopped condemning myself for my short comings and come to realize I will have flaws and short comings. (Ro. 8:1 Therefore there is no condemnation for those in Christ Jesus)

I measured myself to everyone else and realize that their short comings are different than mine. Which does not make them any better than me or me better than them.

That has been realization today and I am content in knowing my mind and heart is being made new daily.

I'm ok

Hello everyone!!!!
Yes I am on a different cloud today. The last one I was hurt and frustrated. After praying and leaving it to God, God intervened and took everything in His hands. The one family member apologized and said Satan has been hounding her, she just took it out on me. Then me going through everything with my family Satan used her to kick me while I was down.

 

But before she apologized I encouraged myself and said I would make it though this and decided to encourage someone else. So I did a Youtube video and did video 3 on my series that I started. I wanted to encourage Denise Cooper (Be my guest with Denise Cooper). She was touched and it made me happy to know that I encouraged her and in the mean while stomping Satan in the throat. YAHHHHH!!!!!

I am content right now and thanking God that I will make it through this storm and any other storm that comes at me.

 

WHY!!!!??????

Hello everyone! First the storm passed with no damage, thank God. It was crazy, the wind here was fierce.

Second, I have dealt with a couple of personal things this week and my heart keeps getting broken and all I hear is your not wanted, no one wants you, may as well drink and eat it away. I feel the spirit of rejection on my back and it is about as bad as the storm we just had. The wind, rain, thunder and lightening I feel over me and pounding on me. My heart is broken and I want to scream, hide and rebel.
My uncle passed away November 1,2014. Now my family informed me of his death on my facebook wall four days after he passed. Then had the nerve to only text me seven days after he passed to tell me because I did not respond. I still did not respond, then they call me to see if I can have him buried at my grandmamma's feet after he has been cremated. My grandmamma's plot is in my mommas name which is also deceased, so me being the living heir I have to give the say so. Now apparently I was not important enough for you to tell me that he passed  but only when you need something. GRRRRRR! I did do it only for the love and respect for one aunt that had no way of telling me anything. Then I get on facebook today to see how one of my husbands niece thinks. It is stupid but my mind takes things to a whole different level. I have always been close to that family. When I did not feel close to my own biological family I felt that they were my family, until up to 2 years ago or so. My husband has seen first hand how I battled with this rejection and heart break. He feels bad because of how his family act, but it is what it is.

I have this thing about family. Always have and probably always will. Family are the ones that can make you feel the worse.

So as I turn this page from this week and day, I will remember that God does love me and I pray that anything that I may have said, done, thought, heard, or seen made Him turn from me. Although scripture says nothing can separate me from the love of Christ.

 

I am also reminded that I am a overcomer and if God is for me who can be against me. Also I am a heir of the throne, I am a High Priest and King. I have the power and authority of the enemy. Satan has played with my emotions because I am weak, he has dropped words of discouragement and pain and I have dwelled on them. I am to hold every thought captive and remember I have on the garment of praise and the armor of God on. No weapon that is formed against me will prosper. Stand firm in the faith I know and His word that He has spoken over me. I am His child and He loves me unconditionally. He has nothing but the best planned for me and no one or nothing can take me out of His hand. Psalms 139 says He thinks about me in one day than there are grains of sand. He has formed and made me. Not my family, mistakes or traumas. Thank You Jesus for setting me free and holding my heart in Your hand. You are my Abba Father and I look to You for my relationship. I love You and praise you with my brokenness. From the ashes I rise!

Whats been up

Hello everyone! It is officially summer!!!!! Not a very hit summer here but all in all it is summer. It has rained a lot but that is some what ok. The farmers need it and so does Gods creation.

I have been busy here lately. More than normal. I waited to come back when something half way exciting was left to post. I have been giving my house a face lift. I painted the kitchen and what use to be the exercising room is now considered the family room. I sit back there in the morning enjoying the peace and quiet, reading the Bible and meditating on Gods word. I also just enjoy looking out the patio door watching the birds and chipmunks. Yes chipmunks! them things are ruining my yard. They are cute but awful on the foundation of the home. Causing leaking and cracks in the basement. Yeah so we are having to find a remedy for them boogers. I heard of the 2 liter pop bottle trick but that is kind of mean.
My latest home project has been our dinette table and chairs. I will be doing a video at the end of this month of all we have done to our home, so I hope you stay close by and check it. I would love your feed back. Here is a sneak peak of the table before and after.

                                                                      Before (yeah I know)

Some of the after

 

I will show you more when we are completely done.

Gotta get off we are having a tornado watch. Please pray