On November 1,2014 I lost my Uncle to alcohol abuse. It destroyed his liver but it didn't take his heart. He had his struggles and up until a few years ago he gave his life to Jesus. When I was a child I remember his attitude about God was agnostic. He came close to dying on more than one occasion. He just never gave credit to God for saving him.
Now that he has passed I can only assume he went home to God. He accepted Jesus Christ as his Lord and Savior when Uncle Dale was serving time for his abuse on alcohol and making bad choices while under the influence. No matter how much he tried he just could not stay away from that poison for long. He would have a dry spell, but turn back to it. I know he hated it, I would see him struggle with shakes from withdraws.
I am angry in this though and it is mostly because of how I found out and when I found out he had passed. I chose not to share but use what has happened as a stone for me to step on and move on. I will no longer be a victim to what has happened and the decisions that people decided to make to tell me. I will however make choses on my relationship with others.
So to you Uncle Dale, I love you and will hole on to the memories of you and I laying out in the sun, you throwing me in the air at the beach and catching me just before I went under the water, you paying me to go to the dry cleaners to drop off or pick up your clothes, and me sneaking into your bedroom and taking your records and cassettes of Michael Jackson, Heart, Willie Nelson and Air Supply. I will never forget the positive words you spoke to me, to encourage me. I will never forget you trying to protect me from people that were hurting me, whether it was verbal or threats of physical abuse. You protected me. I love you and thank you for the role you played in my life God has given me.
Now on to a different note. I have uploaded two videos with my two daughters, Selena and Macayla.
One of the videos is the first ones I ever done. It was Selenas idea to do the video. I hope you guys like it. It may become a usual.
Macayla wanted to do a video with me as well so we did a haul together, but she pretty much sat there. It is the worst video I have done. We look a mess, the sun went down, and the batteries kept dying on me. So instead of starting over and doing it better and looking better, I want you all to know I struggle sometimes, but I still want to be there for ya'll. It helped me to look at something about me that I need to change.... be looking for a video about it. Time to be really real.
I will be taking more pictures and sharing my daily life but it will be week in review vlogs and pictures to go along with it. I think a good camera will be my next big purchase, being my husband got me a lap top to help with uploading. My old computer just was not going to cut it.
I have also plans to blog my schedule on here...or at least tempt to. Hopefully every Sunday night, fingers crossed.
Well I pray that this finds you guys doing well and thank you for stopping by. Your support means more than you know. As always STAY ENCOURAGED!!!
Love Rhonda
A.K.A. Spanky Cola
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