Good Start!!!!

Hello everyone! I wanted to get on here to let you guys know how the diet is going. Yes it has been hard but I am making it. I have not what you call really cheated, but I have come close to going over my calorie intake. I have lost (according to my scale) 4 pounds. I am frustrated, but part of my problem is going to the bathroom. Dairy does not like me. I am having to change a few things to hopefully change that. I am hanging in there so far.  It is helpful when your family is supportive and encouraging. I want to strangle them sometimes because of them telling I can not have something. Especially my daughter Selena. She rides me pretty hard about things. I try to exercise as much as possible and when I can not I try to make it up in the cleaning. So I am moving more.

*side note...my dogs just came in from outside and they smell like the outside....ugh stinky! Now back to your regular program.
I have been accomplishing more on organizing than I ever did last year. I even have been doing more videos and being better at the quality. Still need some work, I am learning.
My husband started his new job this week. He loves how he gets home so much earlier. He is not working all day and part of the night. I love it as well!
Be sure to check out my channel on You Tube to see my latest videos. I am getting ready to upload a first one ever Grocery Haul.
On another side note... I want to thank everyone that has been supporting me and keeping me encouraged. As soon as I lose enough weight and have something to brag about I will possibly disclose what my starting weight was, but as of right now there is a lot of shame and disgust in what I have. That does not mean I am in denial, it means I am embarrassed of what I allowed myself to come to. How much I must of hated myself to not care how I looked and how I was hurting myself. You know you have cutters and you have under eaters and you have me... over eater. When tragedy has struck and you do not know how to deal these are only a couple of the things people do to deal with the pain. I am learning to love me and release the pain to God. See myself through the eyes of God and not man. If that is one thing that I wish I learned is that. I as well as a lot of us has looked at ourselves and how people see us and not how God sees us. God does not make mistakes, He does not make trash, He does not make messes.... but He does allow certain things to happen. Why? The best knowledge that reached me to understanding that is, "Draw me closer to Him. If I never went through bad things I would never grow, I would never learn, and I would never need God. My character would be shaped into what I wanted and not what God wanted." So do I need God...you bet! Does God need me? Question is, does God want me? You bet!
Thanks for coming by and hanging out with me and listening to me ramble. Stay encouraged!
                                         Rhonda aka Spanky Cola